Well, I did it. A little over a year ago I stopped drinking alcohol. It's kind of a big deal. I honestly feel like I can do anything. If I can stop drinking, I can definitely change any habit if I want.
I'm also aware this journey has just begun. I have taken off the alcohol filter that I have been wearing for 20 years, and there is a sense of awakening brewing. It's an awakening to the knowledge that things that I found interesting or fun before, are no longer that. It's an awakening to how much I numbed myself to deal with issues that really bothered me (the news, the downfall of our environment, the humanitarian crisis). Dare I say that I numbed so I didn't have to truly know myself and why I'm here on this planet? Alcohol was my privileged escapism.
It's been a year of not drinking. That was the focus of that year. Not Drinking. As I enter year two, I wrestle with the question who am I now? What am I going to do with what I now see in the world?
I know I am going to take small steps, follow bread crumbs I find along my path. I wonder where they are going to lead me. Most importantly, I'm going be aware. I'm going to be conscious. I'm going to be awake.
Happy Sober Birthday To ME!